Skip to main content

Finding pockets of life (and a bubble-tea metaphor).

“Where can I find life?” has been a question I have asked myself a lot recently (but really for years). And really the deeper question is: “What is life, and what does it look like?” I guess the simple answer is whatever makes you feel alive on the inside; that brings a smile to your face; and that gives you energy and increases your capacity.

There are so many side-effects of burn-out; or maybe they are rather causes of burn-out, which when combined become a huge mountain that can topple even the strongest of people. But once you have been depleted of your capacity to stand in the face of the challenges around you, one of the things that can help increase your energy and capacity is finding pockets of life. (And of course a lot of other things like rest, exercise, patience when the process is slow, setting boundaries etc. but that’s for another blogpost).

The past months I’ve been watching and searching and paying attention. Searching for choices that will bring life, and paying attention to the unexpected moments of life I step into. I have also noticed that most pockets of life are encountered when I am aware of being present, and not aimlessly focusing on a screen that numbs the brain rather than livens it.

One of my life-pockets is writing. I do it so seldom, but when I do it fills me with life. I imagine it feels a little like painting for those who love to paint, or even moulding something from a raw piece of clay. I love letting what is in my heart flow onto a page, and I love the process of figuring out what words and combinations of words will adequately capture what I am trying to say. Sometimes it flows quickly; other times it is a slower process, where it takes time to find the right words, and time to figure out how to fit them together perfectly. Sometimes I close my eyes and try to see the picture my words are painting, to make sure it is right. It is always a good sign when I feel drawn to write. It tells me that my heart has been filled up with something I want to express. And it is always an expression of overflow. That doesn’t mean it is only when life is good that I write, but it’s when life gives me energy; be it a positive and uplifted energy, or a frustrated energy from life’s challenges and injustice that I see. Either way it is a way to let my heart overflow, and give my experience and thoughts a voice. And that gives life.

I love bubble tea. The chewiness of the tapioca pearls that fit exactly through the oversized straw provided with the drink make it a delight. However, sometimes you can also choose little spheres which are filled with fruit concentrate. When you bite into them they burst and everything is coated in the (usually very sweet) flavour of said fruit. My hope is that the life-pockets I discover will eventually burst. Burst in the sense that the life they contain will bring energy and capacity to other areas of life. And that the flavour of life can seep into areas and situations that are maybe dry and dark. Then the taste of life can become a motivator to choose to live in the midst of challenges, turning what was dark into an avenue of hope for change.

And so the invitation is to notice, and to create pockets of life in the mundane and everyday. And my hope is that this December I will see them and jot them down in this blog. Hoping that my words can encourage others, but mostly so that I can create a remembering space for myself to go back to when I have forgotten where life was found. With a hope that these pockets of life will eventually no longer be pockets separated by time, but become part of the way I live and life itself.

Popular posts from this blog

Small moments that mean a lot

Walking home on the crunchy snow that lights up a December evening,  I felt so thankful. The revelation that fellowship and being together is the best gift you can give someone, and realising that although it might seem small, it can turn into something big when a person feels seen and valued.  Yesterday I helped out with a crafts workshop for a group of lovely women volunteering for Crux where I worked before (well, in all honesty: they were making angels while I ate Christmas cookies, Quality Street chocolate, and chatted). I love walking alongside people in conversation, and realise sharing life for 2 hours can last so much longer in value and experience.  This evening we had our Christmas dinner for volunteers and people who are part of my current job. It was a delightful evening with many nations gathered around the same table…. eating the same food… and for a few hours creating a small fellowship moment that will become a good memory for the future. Often in my job ...

Taking in the familiar and a heart connected.

Amsterdam. It still has that muggy feeling in Summer, and a constant flow of people which if you stop to think about it, it's quite amazing that there would even be space to accommodate them all. But then I guess they are not all staying. Just passing through on their way to or from somewhere. It's always good for the heart to visit somewhere that was once home. The familiarity of streets and customs makes it easier to embrace what might be new as well as the joy of being reacquainted with old friends. Friends. So many of them to be found in this city, ready with hugs and good words that are uttered when seeing someone who was away again. Friendship. A treasure that cannot be bought. Cobblestones trodden by many, including myself. Sitting on a bench. Praying. Remembering the first time I stumbled upon this area lined with windows with red lights and curtains. An area which has come to represent no longer windows, but people to me. Some still behind a window. Others who have ...

So what is new in Kansas City?

“Not much”, I think is the answer. Although, that’s not quite correct, I’ve had quite an adventurous weekend (in the mildest sense of the word). Let me see, where do I start? Well, Thursday when I last wrote was really good. I got to join with a team for a bit in the evening, which was really good fun and it lifted my spirits as I am totally a team person! The whole week had been quite tense because of adjustments with our household and people coming and going. On Saturday two of the girls I shared with were moving out and since Friday night they were packing, my other housemate and I went shopping. We figured it was easier to not get caught up in the chaos that packing to move houses is. It was fun to go shopping, even if we only went to Wall-Mart and HyVee (big grocery and other thing shops). We got a few bits and pieces for the house to make it more homely and generally just had fun looking at all the stuff they have. We’d decided that when the other girls had moved we’d do a big cl...