And then I was getting close to change again. I was hoping that maybe a lot of change in quick succession would make the experience of being rooted up yet again a bit less tough, but it seems like that isn’t the case. I do have peace though. Peace about what lies ahead, and peace about the steps forward.
My time here at Grimerud is rapidly drawing to a close. In a mere 9 days I get on the plane, this time to move back home to my parents house for a while. I have loved it so much here at Grimerud. It feels like a home of sorts. My small, but more than sufficient room, has become the familiar, and the girls I share a house with have become like sisters. I will miss the fellowship, friendship, fun times, and numerous cups of tea (Earl Grey of course).
And so the journey commences again, although being here was by no means a time of standing still. More a time of being in one location, yet moving on a different level.
This time I am being taken back to IHOP-KC in Kansas City (my flight leaves on the 23rd January). It’s strange. As I wrote when I was visiting there in October; the USA has never been a place I dreamed of going. I don’t know if it even is now (although I guess having been there, it wouldn’t quite fall into the category of places “to visit”). But there is something about IHOP-KC which tugs at my heart. I am quite sure it’s God.
The flight is now bought (even after a few minor hiccups in the process), and I am on the case to find somewhere to live. I am trying to not think too much about the “to come”, although my thoughts do tend to wander. I wonder what it’ll be like to be there on my own. I wonder how I will manage to organise myself practically. I wonder what God is wanting to say and do. I wonder about so many little details, I sometimes wish I was less of a detail person. I think it would be so much easier if I could have the big picture, big vision type of mind. Then I wouldn’t get so hung up in the little things, which tend to sort themselves out without external help anyway. Still, I am who I am, and so I seek to entrust to God the little details and the things which weigh on my mind. I know He doesn’t mind, although I am sure He wishes for me to not have to use so much energy giving things to Him. And so do I. I want to grasp what it means to rest in God and “sleep with my head on a pillow in the boat while the storm is raging”, knowing that “we will get to the other side”.
At the same time as my mind wanders towards the “to be”, my heart keeps getting reminded of the “has been”. These past days I keep remembering the kids in Fortaleza. I have photos of a small representation of them on my wall, and find that I am still “rooting” for them, asking God to care for them.
Yet in the midst of this, I also need to be in the “now”. I don’t want to miss out on opportunities to have quality time with people here who have embraced me so warmly to become part of their fellowship. I don’t want to miss out on opportunities to be a blessing, even in the short while I still have left.
My time here at Grimerud is rapidly drawing to a close. In a mere 9 days I get on the plane, this time to move back home to my parents house for a while. I have loved it so much here at Grimerud. It feels like a home of sorts. My small, but more than sufficient room, has become the familiar, and the girls I share a house with have become like sisters. I will miss the fellowship, friendship, fun times, and numerous cups of tea (Earl Grey of course).
And so the journey commences again, although being here was by no means a time of standing still. More a time of being in one location, yet moving on a different level.
This time I am being taken back to IHOP-KC in Kansas City (my flight leaves on the 23rd January). It’s strange. As I wrote when I was visiting there in October; the USA has never been a place I dreamed of going. I don’t know if it even is now (although I guess having been there, it wouldn’t quite fall into the category of places “to visit”). But there is something about IHOP-KC which tugs at my heart. I am quite sure it’s God.
The flight is now bought (even after a few minor hiccups in the process), and I am on the case to find somewhere to live. I am trying to not think too much about the “to come”, although my thoughts do tend to wander. I wonder what it’ll be like to be there on my own. I wonder how I will manage to organise myself practically. I wonder what God is wanting to say and do. I wonder about so many little details, I sometimes wish I was less of a detail person. I think it would be so much easier if I could have the big picture, big vision type of mind. Then I wouldn’t get so hung up in the little things, which tend to sort themselves out without external help anyway. Still, I am who I am, and so I seek to entrust to God the little details and the things which weigh on my mind. I know He doesn’t mind, although I am sure He wishes for me to not have to use so much energy giving things to Him. And so do I. I want to grasp what it means to rest in God and “sleep with my head on a pillow in the boat while the storm is raging”, knowing that “we will get to the other side”.
At the same time as my mind wanders towards the “to be”, my heart keeps getting reminded of the “has been”. These past days I keep remembering the kids in Fortaleza. I have photos of a small representation of them on my wall, and find that I am still “rooting” for them, asking God to care for them.
Yet in the midst of this, I also need to be in the “now”. I don’t want to miss out on opportunities to have quality time with people here who have embraced me so warmly to become part of their fellowship. I don’t want to miss out on opportunities to be a blessing, even in the short while I still have left.
And so with a wee bit (or maybe a lot) of confusion in my head and my heart I try to find my way. And as I journey I am so grateful that I am not alone. It really makes all the difference to know that God walks ahead of me, and is beside me every step of the way. And it is after all He who gives me life, and I want to honour Him by being me in this journey I am on.